I remember walking in late, to service one Sunday morning. My parents were already attending Great Life 310, in Carson California and were elders. I knew I could know no longer ride the coat tail of my parent's salvation. I knew God would bring me to a crossroad, and I would have to make a choice. I knew I could no longer do it on my own. I knew if I wanted to leave behind a generation of freedom, I needed to make a choice.
I found myself tired. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally. I was tired of waking up ready to "fake" take on the world and all of life's pressures. Please don't get me wrong I still deal with life's pressures but it's much easier to conquer now, with God.
UNLEASH: to let happen or begin something powerful, that once begun, cannot be controlled.
The world has put a leash on women to be or act a certain way. Sometimes, I think we as women put that leash on ourselves. As a single mother, I found myself leashed to these rules I had to follow as a mother, because I was also taking on the father role. Everything for me was trying to control life, and balance who I was outside of being a young mother.
I found that in my walk with God, I carried those same controlling traits. I was still trying to control how I walked with Him. Having a mindset of
"well I'll walk with Him, talk with Him but if this gets to personal... I'm out!"
This came from fear and anxiety that the world would see me for me. That they may or may not like it. That I would actually have to put my pride aside and say... "I need help!"
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" -Philippians 4:6-7
I found that if I wanted to be unleashed from old patterns, that I had to renew my mind. That I needed God more than ever to do so. I was in a season of confusion. Angry for my past decisions. Condemning myself for reckless behavior. Hoping everyday I would wake up with a new outlook on my life. My life was careless before God. Careless about where I was headed. Careless about my environments. Careless about what I put in my body. Careless about how my actions would affect my child. This carefree nonchalant attitude led me to a lifestyle of selfish behavior. I found myself always searching for something.
God did just that though. Gave me more life! More reasons to wake up renewed. More passion to go after His will for my life. I couldn't see it, but I could feel it.
The truth has no agenda of trying to complicate your life. It's simply just the truth. I couldn't run from it!
I unleashed my life to Jesus! Everything that I thought was not good enough, or unworthy or nobody could handle; He held it ALL in the palm of His hand and said
"I got you!"
That was enough for me.
"Peace is what I leave with you; it is my own peace that I give you. I do not give it as the world does. Do not be worried and upset; do not be afraid." -John 14:22
Thru Jesus, you can live an unleashed life!